My time at home with Ben is quickly coming to a close. I cannot fathom how quickly this has all gone, even though on some days there are still moments that seem to just drag on.
I am absolutely dreading returning to work. I feel like we're finally making good progress and most days I have a great time spending my day with Ben. He is showing more and more of his true personality and I have learned a little more about how he ticks, therefore I think both of us are enjoying each other more.
It's no secret that being a mom is not something that came easy to me, but it really is getting better every day. Cheesy as it sounds, my love for my son is still growing every day.
We've continued having playdates, are visiting his daycare, and have started baby swimming. We've made it around the neighborhood in the stroller, but still encounter bloodcurdling screams in the car seat.
Ben LOVES to be in the water. Unfortunately his little pool deflated, so for now he has to make do with a little water table at home, but we're planning on getting him in the big pool at the community center more often.
We're getting to know other moms and their babies, but I have to admit that I still feel most comfortable among other adoptive families. Many moms of children Ben's age seem to still be reliving their pregnancies and past milestones, and also seem very hung up on who their baby looks like. All of these are things I just cannot relate to and there are few things more boring than listening to someone go on and on about whose nose, eyelashes, ears, dimples etc their child has.
Why can't they just take their child as who this child is rather than desperatly trying to find pieces of others. But I'm ranting again.
My sweet boy turns one in less than two weeks. Don't get me started. I am supposed to be planning his dol. I did send invites and started on a dol tower, but that's pretty much the extent of my planning. Yikes! I have grand ideas, but the closer the day comes, the less I think they will become reality!